So I’ve been going through some battles, mostly just trying to discern what God’s plans are for me, and battle the lies Satan keeps throwing at me. It has created a sort of chaos and confusion in my life for a while now. Recently, God has really been showing me some things that have been convicting, but needed. I keep falling prey to Satan’s lies, and it just makes it so easy to blame God for everything that doesn’t go my way. I keep blaming God for the fact that I don’t understand what I am supposed to do with my life. But recently God has been showing me that I don’t understand because instead of listening to His plan for my life, I let Satan lie and tell me my plans are better. He keeps showing me that my plans aren’t going to work if they aren’t in line with His plan for my life.
“For God is not a God of confusion, but of Peace.”—this verse in 1 Corinthians 14:33 just stopped me when I read it. Recently there has been so much confusion in my life, just trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be doing and who I am supposed to be, and I have been trying to figure out why God is bringing it, so this verse just made me think, and keep reading because I knew there was more to it. God made it simple—Love God, Love People. Every other command can fall into those in some way or another. He came to conquer sin and death so that we can live with Him in peace. Before sin entered the world, Adam and Eve lived in Peace in the garden. It was Satan who came in and tempted Eve to eat the forbidden fruit, and Satan who continues to tempt us all today. I know I fall prey, but I also look back and see that every time I have fallen short, God has been there to pick up my broken and confused pieces. God has been there to restore joy and peace to my crazy life, even though I continually mess up and don’t deserve anything He has done for me. So when I was reading this it was like He was just reminding me that my sin is what brings the confusion to my life, and His glory is what redeems me, so instead of blaming Him when things go wrong, I need to humble myself and surrender to His will instead of my own selfish plans. Instead of getting upset when things don’t go my way, I need to stop and listen to see what it is that God is calling me to do, so that when His plans are revealed to me I can live out that life of joy and peace.
I’m convicted, but I’m so thankful that God never gives up on me and continues to show me where I go wrong and just how big and wonderful He is. =]













